Gaming Your Way

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Not dead, just mortally wounded

Thought I should post something up explaining our quietness here recently ( And to thank our friends at other blogs for keeping on linking to our puerile words ).

nGFX's has had bits and bobs to do outside the GYW world, plus he's currently hard at work on a cheeky Unity game which when I last saw it was looking pretty damn nice ( And not an obvious Unity game at all ).
We had a chat today and we're looking to try and be a bit more pro-active with other Flash devs looking towards Unity, it's something I spoke to John ( Mate, update your blog! ) and Chris ( I didn't know pinball was on there, sweet ) about when we got drunk the other week, the whole "We're on the same side, let's share Unity stuff more".

As for me, my personal life has just turned to shit the last month. If I was on Facebook I've have to change my status to single. To be honest that's knocked the shit out of me and I've had to re-evaluate everything ( 8 weeks ago I was still blindly thinking how I could get enough money for the wedding in August, now I'm wondering if I'm even going to stay living in London.
Sometimes life is great, a joy where you can actually take for granted there is a God and you can almost feel Him straightening out the path before you, that your soul really can soar and although today was great, tomorrow is going to be even better again. Other times life is just a cunt ).

Anyway before this turns into an angst riddled wail of a blog ( I can think of very few worse themes for a blog. We all have emotional turmoil, it doesn't mean it's a valid thing to share in a public medium. I'm just trying to justify my apathy rather than screaming [ At the moon ] for help ) on the work front I've just today started a new project with thebasement which I'm really pleased to be doing, and it's a chance for me to work with ickydime which is more than cool.

I'm sure as my "whats the fucking point ?" attitude slowly gets replaced by anger I'll find my old venom and we can return to normal posting here ( For example, the GameProducer blog really bugs the hell out of me, but I can't slag it too much 'cause it'll be sods law that the next post on FlashGameBlogs after this one will be one from there, but seriously man, to be a game producer you have to actually produce a game. The clues are in the actual words. It's like me starting a blog about being an author, when I've not actually written anything. There's a world of difference between wanting something and actually doing it, otherwise we'd all have had sex with twins ).

Hmmm, I'm starting to feel more like myself.


Comments (11) -

  • urbansquall

    4/15/2009 3:14:12 PM |

    Sorry bud. Glad you're slowly getting back on track.  :(

  • Jeff Fulton

    4/15/2009 9:09:53 PM |

    OUCH! If I read that right, sorry, mate. I hope things work out for the best. If you need some help with anything, you know my private email. You can always move out here to California. We have pretty good weather most of the time...

  • oos

    4/16/2009 5:33:51 AM |

    Keep it up dude! *Hug* ;)

  • Squize

    4/16/2009 10:44:35 AM |

    Cheers guys :)

    I don't want to dwell on this too much as I really feel like I've had a part of me ripped out, I only posted to try and explain why I've been off my game recently ( With regards posting here and getting back to emails ) rather than having some need for sympathy ( Although it is appreciated :) ).

    Jeff California sounds great, although re-locating to the US is a mare now. Spain is an idea that's buzzing around my head, it's 2.5 hours away, large pockets of ex-pats ( Although that's a mixed blessing ), cheap, sunny, laid back etc.

    Anyway we'll see, I'm still not overly pro-active on any level atm

  • bas

    4/16/2009 1:24:49 PM |

    Funny you should say Spain. I'm a Dutchman living in Spain for the last 9 years. I'm doing quite nice here and, as an added bonus, game development has been declared a form of art (culture) some weeks ago. That means we're looking forward to nice VAT rates and other benefits soon to be announced.

    And about the ex-pats... don't bother, there's fresh blood here :-)

    Keep it up mate.


  • Jeff Fulton

    4/16/2009 3:16:26 PM |

    Spain sounds like where I want to move also!
    How can we help you get back on your game, Rich? The new Mac should help some. It's like using a hot knife to cut melted butter, it so smooth... Parallels or VM for Windows is a must if you have a lot of PC software you need to use though. Not surprisingly, my iMac runs Windows better than any machine I have ever had.

  • Squize

    4/17/2009 12:48:08 PM |

    bas those art reliefs sound great, it's those kind of things that really help swing it ( That and the fact that I'm paying £850 / 960 euro a month rent here for a 2 bed maisonette + bills. Even with the £ being worth a lot less than it was 6 months ago I can still get a lot more for my money in Spain than here ).

    Thanks for letting me know and the good words of support :)

    Hey Jeff, I've started toying with VM Fusion, which seems to work really well, it's strange having the mac version of FF running along with the windows version both on the same shared desktop ( Rather than everything being held within an emulated window ).
    MobileMe looks like it could be a real life saver in terms of syncing, although Live Mesh looks good and is free

  • bas

    4/17/2009 6:11:00 PM |

    Just quickly:

    * Rent is a wee bit lower here but, don't forget, incomes also are. ( Although if you make a living purely on selling outside of Spain, you should be able to up your lifestyle quite a bit. )

    * People adjust quickly, but I must admit I had my doubts a few times during the first years. A lot of Spanish people are complete asses but, come to think of it, so are most other people from other countries :-) Finally I teamed up with some great Spanish people here.

    * You're welcome to keep my email if you need a hand / info / whatever.

    * Enough about Spain, back to programming >>>

  • Squize

    4/18/2009 7:15:47 PM |

    Thanks a lot man, I will more than likely take you up on your offer as I'm sure there are a million questions that just haven't come to me yet ( Don't worry, I won't hit you with all a million of them :) )

    ...and yep, back to coding

  • Mark

    4/22/2009 3:26:14 AM |

    Sorry to hear about the lady.
    Use it as an excuse to come visit foreign lands :D
    Take care mate, talk soon

  • Squize

    4/24/2009 11:55:35 AM |

    Cheers mate.

    If I had the money I'd be over there like a shot.

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